The purpose of my blog is to be transparent. To share my inner most "secrets" or thoughts in hopes of encouraging and uplifting others.
When I was young, I use to tell people I had "stupid" faith. My "stupid" faith was what God had called me to have. It is described as an inconceivable amount of faith in the unimaginable, that it makes me look stupid to the naked eye. I have always had a wild imagination. If you hold a conversation with me, I typically describe things vividly, giving great visuals though its a simple conversation. It's because of my crazy imagination. But this imagination serves great purpose when it comes to trusting God. If I can imagine it, God can do it. So, over the course of a year, God has been constantly reminding me of my once "stupid" faith and calling me back to that place in order for Him to do the unimaginable in my life.
This morning I rose and spent time writing and praying and felt compelled to share a page from my diary. These are my inner most thoughts, but want to encourage someone today. Be encouraged, hold fast to the Word of God, and the know that He doesn't fail. He is God alone and all we will ever need. Be blessed.
Write the vision and make it plain...
Father God, I thank you. I thank You for the friendships and Godly counsel that surrounds; the discernment that resides amongst us and the for Your Word which gives directions. Habakkuk 2 tells/instructs us to write the vision... "And the Lord answered me, and said, Write the vision and make it plain upon tables, that he may run that reads it. For the vision is for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry."
Thank You for Your instructions. With tears in my eyes, I thank You. Sometimes the human side attempts to rush the process, tends to doubt of fall into the temptation of handling it or "assisting" You. But, I am so thankful for discernment; for the Holy Spirit that resides internally that leaves that unsettling nag at the pit of my stomach. Thank You for the still small voice that, though is a whisper, echoes so clearly, "What happened to your stupid faith? What happened to my little girl who dreamed the unimaginable? Who trusted without wavering?"
So, I hand it back over to You God. Your ways are not my ways. Your ability to provide the things inconceivable to the mind of man has never failed. So I trust You. With my life, health, strength, marriage, career... I will believe in You, the Almighty. I praise Your Holy Name for You are worthy and I will trust in Your timing. Though I've laid out my vision, I also ask that Your Will be done in our lives. I never want to so selfishly pray for You to perform miracles in my life, but instead to yield to Your Will and trust the process. So grant me the understanding that if my desires aren't met, it's because You have greater in store. Help me to not focus solely on the things I have yet to receive and simply rejoice in You. Along this journey, teach me. My heart is open to You, to Your wisdom, to Your Will.
Humbly I welcome You. I welcome You to reside and take captive of my life. It is my desire to please You, to live out my purpose in Christ and to hear You say "Well done". So pour out Your instructions. Shower me with wisdom and knowledge. Let me lean not unto my own understanding. Allow me to meditate on Your word day and night. Let the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart be acceptable.
I pray now against every curse spoken into our lives. I denounce their ability to take root. I call for their destruction and the demolishing of any stronghold that has manifested itself as a result of spoken and generational curses. I bind the enemy and every attempt and cast them back to the fiery pits of hell where they belongs. Fear has no place here, hopelessness has no place here, doubt has no place here. Allow Your Sovereignty to rest and rule in our homes, our marriage, on our jobs... "the first shall become last and the last, first." Lord, I hear You speaking Promotion, Elevation, Increase, Overflow in the Name of Jesus. I declare it now, as the atmosphere shifts, as our souls prospers, our lives are shifting, the momentum is building and we're being prepared to go higher. I welcome spiritual growth, physical expansion all around, financial elevation and increase. It Is Done! You are God alone and I thank You for Your spoken words, for Your confirmation. I praise You and wait on You to reveal Your instructions. Order our steps, lead and guide us and keep our hearts turned to You in the might Name of Jesus.